I would say that I'm afraid to love but that would be a lie. If I was afraid to love I think I would run from relationships rather than jump in head first. Part of me wonders if part of the reason I go charging in is simply to prove inner voice right. I can run in their prove that the man isn't interested me and never was and then I can leave saying "See I was right." I suppose that is fear too.
My relationship rap sheet reads like a screenplay for Days of Our Lives, minus the evil twins and Stefano DiMera. Each relationship end has had some sort of dramatic almost soap opera like element to it. (Another reason that I stopped watching soap operas I have enough in my life I don't need to watch it on TV) I think this alone is reason enough to be scared and to expect that any relationship I get into will have a premature ending.
I have yet to have a relationship that lasts longer than 4 months and the last relationship I had that lasted any length of time at all was 5 years ago.
It seems that I'm the 'friend' type of girl and not 'girlfriend' or 'wife' material.
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